In life there are ups and downs ;today the latter reintroduced itself in a novel form.
Initially, there was pure unhindered shock leading me to pace incessantly while suppressing urges to act in a harsh manner to say at the least. Within minutes, I knew I needed to let this out before it consumed my entire being. I did and slowly the shock, anger, guilt, and outrageous means of justice left my mind.
While I wish that today never came, I know that the situation was brought to my attention because God trusted me to deal with it. I'll have to face it tomorrow but a soupcon of me hopes that tonight never ends. But then there would only be waiting and that would drain what little strength left in me. While I may feel weak now, I know that when the sunrises I will be as strong, fierce and even as ferocious as a tiger in the midst of a territorial war.
That's what this is essentially, a dispute over land amongst the good and evil. In this materialistic and seeming immoral time, God exists and sees all. I need strength to face this head on and to be successful because I will not sacrifice a loved one, I won't give up. It's going to be exhausting but I care about this person too much to let him continue on this wrongfully chosen path. It rips my heart to know of this treachery but I will not let my anger push us apart. I will seek wisdom and serenity to change a seemingly hopeless future. Failure is not an option.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Hi,
So I was just on facebook attempting to keep in touch with all of you and recognized that this may be a challenge. Then I got tagged in Salimah's note and that's when it happened. I heard violins and choirs across the world starting a melodic piece and delivering with it an epiphany the size of Pluto (it was a planet, but is it big because of it? Or small because it got kicked out of the cool kid's club?): I SHOULD HAVE A BLOG!!!
I don't know how big or small this is going to be. I'm not sure what I'm going to be writing about and who I want reading it.
But let's get started...
I'm spending my summer in Chicago with my family and friends. I'm on a mission to find a decent job while doing summer school and most importantly having life changing encounters. What does that mean? I don't know but I'm hoping I'll find out jumping off a bridge (don't worry there will be rope involved.........at the ankles......not at the neck!), while landing an amazing internship, getting my driver's license, meeting new and exciting people, hanging out with with friends and family etc.
So if you are still interested here is my day so far
I arrived home last night while my mom was working. Hussain and I walked to Jewel to get a cake to surprise my mom for her birthday/mother's day. It was quite fun :) The cake was a strawberry torte and absolutely delicious. My mom had bought me pj's that light up. She had gotten me a pair back in December too. I was wearing them at 77 (my fantastic house this past year), and it was late and i had just worn them and gotten into bed and my shirt started flashing (the lights!!!) and for a second Nida and I had a heart attack!
This year was absolutely amazing in terms of my living situation. I randomly landed this place when Alisha, my big sib, moved into the condos. I met the two most fantastic people (such an understatement): Nida and Sheru. There are countless memories that were made with them this year whether it be making late night food, setting the fire alarm off, going for 3am walks in Cootes (ok so it only happened once), riding shopping carts, playing charades, karaoke, halloween, baking, and it goes on and on. These two lovely ladies are currently dancing with the sexiest bartenders of Cuba right now. Hope you ladies are having an amazing time!
SaliI. I remember people asking how we know each other and we used to go with we randomly met and became obsessed with each other. But that itself feels like an understatement too because I feel like you were sent into my life to help me grow spiritually and intellectually this year. There are so many memories, we have made in these past years and I don't know if I've even explicitly stated how happy I am that we are friends (soul mates really :)). I came across this on a a set of post, HAPPINESS IS A HABIT-CULTIVATE IT. It's true and I know it can be difficult to remember this when we are swimming in midterms and assignments but its true and it is something we need to learn. How many times have we been told this year to rejoice and be happy? Have we been following it? I forget where we heard this, but praying is like putting your feet in a pond. But being with God is like swimming in the sea. Let's try to continue on that journey of searching this summer.
Ok so I want to tell you about Shazeen now! But I still haven't told you about my day. So here's the Sparknotes version (heheh Shazeen)! My mom's a nurse and works in an elderly home where they had a mother's day party. My brother and I went out to help and I got to meet some remarkable ladies full of wisdom and insight. I am hoping to be able to go in regularly to assist them. It is overwhelming, seeing seemingly fragile people alone in such an establishment but if it hurts to see it, it must kill to experience it. And if by listening to them talk about baseball, East Germany, Obama, eggs and so on makes their day a little better than I have to do it, there is no other choice. Visiting these places makes me think about the necessity of creating instituions to allow elders to age with dignity and in good company. So after this Hussain fell asleep, leaving me to read in bed which usually ends in me sleeping :P. When I woke up it was time for khane and then we went out for dinner in Devon (South Asian area). In khane I got to see all these little kids all grown up. I remember trying to help them read numbers in Shoes Company way back when and here they are standing on a block reciting speeches. My brother also introduced me to his ex and I immediately recognized her as the shy 8 year old with the most exquisite eyes. I think we were both creeped out about how I knew his girlfriend before he did and didn't even know it. Some of his friends were introducing themselves to me and I knew all of them too as the bumbling kid volunteers. Kind of scary: I'm old!!!!
Ok so I'm going to give a blurb about Shazeen (All other friends will be in the upcoming posts). I still remember meeting Shazeen sitting on a table wearing her beige coat and beret, we were giving ideas about the first year skits night commercials and just started hanging out more and more.One day me, her, and SaliI will live together with a puppy and a queen size bed (it'll be a king but no need to mention that!) Shazeen has insight into almost everything whether it be Savior Siblings or Shirley Temple and she always knows how to have a good time. The quality I admire about her most is her open mind attitude and how when she has a set of beliefs, she follows through on them (LIL) She's always willing to learn about other people's perspectives and is a very diverse being who I am madly in love with!!!
Coming soon: Shina, Rockband, Chocolate, Harmen, Naureen, Lokhandwala, Boy stories, me becoming a rockstar......................
Stay tuned!
So I was just on facebook attempting to keep in touch with all of you and recognized that this may be a challenge. Then I got tagged in Salimah's note and that's when it happened. I heard violins and choirs across the world starting a melodic piece and delivering with it an epiphany the size of Pluto (it was a planet, but is it big because of it? Or small because it got kicked out of the cool kid's club?): I SHOULD HAVE A BLOG!!!
I don't know how big or small this is going to be. I'm not sure what I'm going to be writing about and who I want reading it.
But let's get started...
I'm spending my summer in Chicago with my family and friends. I'm on a mission to find a decent job while doing summer school and most importantly having life changing encounters. What does that mean? I don't know but I'm hoping I'll find out jumping off a bridge (don't worry there will be rope involved.........at the ankles......not at the neck!), while landing an amazing internship, getting my driver's license, meeting new and exciting people, hanging out with with friends and family etc.
So if you are still interested here is my day so far
I arrived home last night while my mom was working. Hussain and I walked to Jewel to get a cake to surprise my mom for her birthday/mother's day. It was quite fun :) The cake was a strawberry torte and absolutely delicious. My mom had bought me pj's that light up. She had gotten me a pair back in December too. I was wearing them at 77 (my fantastic house this past year), and it was late and i had just worn them and gotten into bed and my shirt started flashing (the lights!!!) and for a second Nida and I had a heart attack!
This year was absolutely amazing in terms of my living situation. I randomly landed this place when Alisha, my big sib, moved into the condos. I met the two most fantastic people (such an understatement): Nida and Sheru. There are countless memories that were made with them this year whether it be making late night food, setting the fire alarm off, going for 3am walks in Cootes (ok so it only happened once), riding shopping carts, playing charades, karaoke, halloween, baking, and it goes on and on. These two lovely ladies are currently dancing with the sexiest bartenders of Cuba right now. Hope you ladies are having an amazing time!
SaliI. I remember people asking how we know each other and we used to go with we randomly met and became obsessed with each other. But that itself feels like an understatement too because I feel like you were sent into my life to help me grow spiritually and intellectually this year. There are so many memories, we have made in these past years and I don't know if I've even explicitly stated how happy I am that we are friends (soul mates really :)). I came across this on a a set of post, HAPPINESS IS A HABIT-CULTIVATE IT. It's true and I know it can be difficult to remember this when we are swimming in midterms and assignments but its true and it is something we need to learn. How many times have we been told this year to rejoice and be happy? Have we been following it? I forget where we heard this, but praying is like putting your feet in a pond. But being with God is like swimming in the sea. Let's try to continue on that journey of searching this summer.
Ok so I want to tell you about Shazeen now! But I still haven't told you about my day. So here's the Sparknotes version (heheh Shazeen)! My mom's a nurse and works in an elderly home where they had a mother's day party. My brother and I went out to help and I got to meet some remarkable ladies full of wisdom and insight. I am hoping to be able to go in regularly to assist them. It is overwhelming, seeing seemingly fragile people alone in such an establishment but if it hurts to see it, it must kill to experience it. And if by listening to them talk about baseball, East Germany, Obama, eggs and so on makes their day a little better than I have to do it, there is no other choice. Visiting these places makes me think about the necessity of creating instituions to allow elders to age with dignity and in good company. So after this Hussain fell asleep, leaving me to read in bed which usually ends in me sleeping :P. When I woke up it was time for khane and then we went out for dinner in Devon (South Asian area). In khane I got to see all these little kids all grown up. I remember trying to help them read numbers in Shoes Company way back when and here they are standing on a block reciting speeches. My brother also introduced me to his ex and I immediately recognized her as the shy 8 year old with the most exquisite eyes. I think we were both creeped out about how I knew his girlfriend before he did and didn't even know it. Some of his friends were introducing themselves to me and I knew all of them too as the bumbling kid volunteers. Kind of scary: I'm old!!!!
Ok so I'm going to give a blurb about Shazeen (All other friends will be in the upcoming posts). I still remember meeting Shazeen sitting on a table wearing her beige coat and beret, we were giving ideas about the first year skits night commercials and just started hanging out more and more.One day me, her, and SaliI will live together with a puppy and a queen size bed (it'll be a king but no need to mention that!) Shazeen has insight into almost everything whether it be Savior Siblings or Shirley Temple and she always knows how to have a good time. The quality I admire about her most is her open mind attitude and how when she has a set of beliefs, she follows through on them (LIL) She's always willing to learn about other people's perspectives and is a very diverse being who I am madly in love with!!!
Coming soon: Shina, Rockband, Chocolate, Harmen, Naureen, Lokhandwala, Boy stories, me becoming a rockstar......................
Stay tuned!
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